Its a friday and im at home. Hais.. Its been one whole week since me and marcus have parted our ways. If we were still tgt, i`ll be outside with him now and he`ll be at my house later. Hais.. I wonder what he is doing now? Its been 10 days since i`ve last seen him and i really miss him fucking hell loads. I wonder if he misses our past and me like i do?
Oh wells.. i`ve been sleeping since just now when i came back home from school. My sisters actually asked me if i wanna go 'Vivocity' with them to shop but i didnt go bcos they were already all dolled up & i just came back home from school. Besides, vivocity would remind me of marcus ! =( Hais... Life just sucks without him, no amount of guys i know now can ever replace him. Zzz.. Marcus i miss youuuuuuuuuu! >.<
I was eating biscuits just now and guess what i did with them?
Haha. Sigh.. i think no one will ever know how much i miss marcus, how much i yearn for his love, how much i wish for him to turn back and tell me that he love me again. I really dream & wish everyday that one day, he`ll call me and tell me that he is sorry and that he still loves me. HAIS. Forget it. He is having his fun now and i think he doesnt feel for me anymore. My confidence of him coming back to me is also slowly going down... ;(
I know that even if one day, if i ever find a new bf, i`ll just be playing with his feelings. I dont know why but i know that no one, NOT ANYONE will ever replace marcus in my heart. Even if i may show that i love him more, but deep down, i myself will know who is the one i love the most. Marcus may look bad to all of you here but thats bcos i tend to complain alot about his bad points. Hais..
Firstly, when i was 14 years old, i knew marcus thru the game 'gunbound'. We played tgt everyday and even played right till the next day. Somehow, even thou i`ve never seen him before, i liked him and somehow had a feeling that we`ll get tgt one day. We talked on the phone every night and sometimes, he`ll even tell me that he love me and i`ll just tell him to stop being a bitch, but actually, i had already fell in love with him. So just nice, pearlynn (my crush) got tgt with marcus`s brother and they all came to my house on xmas eve. I can rmb tht the first time i saw him, he was in 3/4 pants and a 3/4 sleeve shirt. He looked so so cute. Me and pearlynn den went to hg mall to buy food for the boys and when i came back home, marcus was sleeping on the mini sofa. He was afraid of the 2 dogs my auntie left at my house. Haha. So so cute right?! I went to kick his sofa and he woke up and i went to carry the dog to scare him. Haha.. den after they ate, they left my house. We met agn on new year`s eve and i rmb tht tht stupid boy almost dropped my new HP into the sea (-___-") I also rmb tht we went to macdonalds to eat and he ate Mcwings and drank coke and he also bought a coke for me too. This past few months, marcus was in & out of relationships and i was silently waiting for him. And the next few months, we still went out tgt and i know he loved to pinch my cheeks and i`ll always pinch him back too. I even rmb chasing him and he banged into a banner and fell over. It was so fucking funny lah ! Then one fine day, we went to kbox and tht poor boy was sick, he had to keep drinking and drinking and he finally got drunk and he lied on my lap while i held his cap. His cap has a really very nice & special smell and i like to take his cap from him & smell it. Haha. So when marcus sobbered up, he held my hand and i got a shock but i was flying to the sky alrdy. LOLS. And the dumb waiter had to come in @ tht time. -.- I knew tht he didnt mistake me for another girl bcos after the waiter left, he said to me ' Samantha, give me your hand' and when i did, he held it again. Hais.. We finally got tgt on 26march05, broke up once on the 28th of july, got back tgt again and lasted all the way till now. Hais.. Just as how fate brought us tgt, it tore us apart too. I really dont understand why guys can NEVER sacrifice anything for the one they love, will they really die w/o any girls in their lives? Hais.. Marcus will never know how much he fucking means to me.
Marcus, if you`re reading this, although i may seem okay, sound okay and seem happy to you now, but you dont know how much i really really miss you. I really miss you so much that i feel like crying. I`ve shed every single drop of tear for you and how much more do i need to shed for you, just for you to turn back and tell me you love me again? Do you miss me like i miss you or are you happier with your life now? I`ve got so many qns in my mind but yet i`ve got no answers. I am trying very hard to forget you, but i really cant. I tell myself that i can always find another guy better than you but deep down in my heart, i know tht no once can ever EVER replace you. Why cant you understand my pains of losing you? Dont you feel the pain of losing me too? Dont you miss taking care of me like your precious lil girl? Dont you miss my lil girl tantrums? Dont you? Because i know i do miss every single thing, i even miss you scolding me ! Hais.. Remember this photo of me when i was 14?
Do you miss me now? Hais
Damn it. Im feeling emo. So i guess im gonna stop here now. Fuck my life. __
Sammie Misses Marcus.
Oh wells.. i`ve been sleeping since just now when i came back home from school. My sisters actually asked me if i wanna go 'Vivocity' with them to shop but i didnt go bcos they were already all dolled up & i just came back home from school. Besides, vivocity would remind me of marcus ! =( Hais... Life just sucks without him, no amount of guys i know now can ever replace him. Zzz.. Marcus i miss youuuuuuuuuu! >.<
I was eating biscuits just now and guess what i did with them?
Haha. Sigh.. i think no one will ever know how much i miss marcus, how much i yearn for his love, how much i wish for him to turn back and tell me that he love me again. I really dream & wish everyday that one day, he`ll call me and tell me that he is sorry and that he still loves me. HAIS. Forget it. He is having his fun now and i think he doesnt feel for me anymore. My confidence of him coming back to me is also slowly going down... ;(
I know that even if one day, if i ever find a new bf, i`ll just be playing with his feelings. I dont know why but i know that no one, NOT ANYONE will ever replace marcus in my heart. Even if i may show that i love him more, but deep down, i myself will know who is the one i love the most. Marcus may look bad to all of you here but thats bcos i tend to complain alot about his bad points. Hais..
Firstly, when i was 14 years old, i knew marcus thru the game 'gunbound'. We played tgt everyday and even played right till the next day. Somehow, even thou i`ve never seen him before, i liked him and somehow had a feeling that we`ll get tgt one day. We talked on the phone every night and sometimes, he`ll even tell me that he love me and i`ll just tell him to stop being a bitch, but actually, i had already fell in love with him. So just nice, pearlynn (my crush) got tgt with marcus`s brother and they all came to my house on xmas eve. I can rmb tht the first time i saw him, he was in 3/4 pants and a 3/4 sleeve shirt. He looked so so cute. Me and pearlynn den went to hg mall to buy food for the boys and when i came back home, marcus was sleeping on the mini sofa. He was afraid of the 2 dogs my auntie left at my house. Haha. So so cute right?! I went to kick his sofa and he woke up and i went to carry the dog to scare him. Haha.. den after they ate, they left my house. We met agn on new year`s eve and i rmb tht tht stupid boy almost dropped my new HP into the sea (-___-") I also rmb tht we went to macdonalds to eat and he ate Mcwings and drank coke and he also bought a coke for me too. This past few months, marcus was in & out of relationships and i was silently waiting for him. And the next few months, we still went out tgt and i know he loved to pinch my cheeks and i`ll always pinch him back too. I even rmb chasing him and he banged into a banner and fell over. It was so fucking funny lah ! Then one fine day, we went to kbox and tht poor boy was sick, he had to keep drinking and drinking and he finally got drunk and he lied on my lap while i held his cap. His cap has a really very nice & special smell and i like to take his cap from him & smell it. Haha. So when marcus sobbered up, he held my hand and i got a shock but i was flying to the sky alrdy. LOLS. And the dumb waiter had to come in @ tht time. -.- I knew tht he didnt mistake me for another girl bcos after the waiter left, he said to me ' Samantha, give me your hand' and when i did, he held it again. Hais.. We finally got tgt on 26march05, broke up once on the 28th of july, got back tgt again and lasted all the way till now. Hais.. Just as how fate brought us tgt, it tore us apart too. I really dont understand why guys can NEVER sacrifice anything for the one they love, will they really die w/o any girls in their lives? Hais.. Marcus will never know how much he fucking means to me.
Marcus, if you`re reading this, although i may seem okay, sound okay and seem happy to you now, but you dont know how much i really really miss you. I really miss you so much that i feel like crying. I`ve shed every single drop of tear for you and how much more do i need to shed for you, just for you to turn back and tell me you love me again? Do you miss me like i miss you or are you happier with your life now? I`ve got so many qns in my mind but yet i`ve got no answers. I am trying very hard to forget you, but i really cant. I tell myself that i can always find another guy better than you but deep down in my heart, i know tht no once can ever EVER replace you. Why cant you understand my pains of losing you? Dont you feel the pain of losing me too? Dont you miss taking care of me like your precious lil girl? Dont you miss my lil girl tantrums? Dont you? Because i know i do miss every single thing, i even miss you scolding me ! Hais.. Remember this photo of me when i was 14?
Do you miss me now? Hais
Damn it. Im feeling emo. So i guess im gonna stop here now. Fuck my life. __
Sammie Misses Marcus.
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